Why am I still a Raver at "my age" :-)

By: ravenfire420 Mood: tired Date: 08/10/2006 06:11:16 Music: None

I have been asked this so many times as well as why I'm still a raver today, at "my age". I was talking to a friend of mine this morning and the topic came up. My first exposure to this life, lifestyle and culture came early in life. I was born 4-20-1968 (yea, I know what day that is...lol) to parents who weren't part of the "norm". They weren't married, my moms was 19 and my dad was 18. This was the 60's after all...people were more "open" weren't they? *grins* I remember listening to old 45's my room with my brother of old 50-60's music, dancing around our room. I was just a little kid when the disco scene came into being but the beats, oh the beats...you couldn't stop me...it was my sirens' song...I would sneak around and listen to it and hold on to the speakers, the summer was made for my little toddler ass and music...I'd blare the stereo wide open to the latest happening beats being dropped on wax, 8 track and FM (hey come on it was the 70's afterall) I would watch tv and see all the beautiful people in the "discos" dancing the night away and dream that was me. I remember hearing Blondies Rapture, Sugar Hill Gang Rappers Delight and got turned onto rap and turntableism and the birth of the breaker. All this did was serve to bring me deeper into the music and fuel my desire. Moving into the 80's the synth opened a whole new door for me...Gary Newman-Cars, The Eurythmics-Sweet Dreams! This new sound touched places in my soul that I didn't know existed! The one summer morning my moms woke me up to come see these "freaks" on Donahue...It was Michael Alig and his crew, I had inadvertantly been introduced to the rave scene...the club kidz had hit the country!! Omg, I sooo wanted to graduate school, move to New York and be a club kid, I had my style and name...but life stepped in, I got married and had my daughter...but the music still ran hot through me like the blood pumping through my veins! Today I am 38 years old, I am still "addicted" to music as never before. I have been in the scene steadily for the past 6 years having come out to have my daughter and raise her, the music a huge part of our life together. So I guess you can't say I chose to be a raver, I was BORN to be one...Now the question...why am I still in it? If you know me you know I hate crowds (huge phobia) so why rave? Its the joy of the music, feeling those tracks pound through my body, mind and soul, taking me on a spiritual journey. I can be myself there! I don't like drawing attention to myself, I hate it, but yet I walk around with tattooes, piercings, oddly colored hair, kandi bracelets, glitter, pony/pig tailes, comfy clothes and rawking adidas. Some would say oh you just want attention doing that but they don't know me very well do they...its my way of letting free and showing what is inside me caused by the music...I don't care about stares, I don't care what people think of me...EDM of any genre is like a drug, better than the head meds they give ya, it can take you on journeys of the mind, making you delve into your own spiritual psyche and ask questions. Its primitive, the "beat" dating back to our prehistoric ancestors...if people are honest with themself they'll see that its our inborn genetic trait to be drawn to music.

So why do I still do it?

FOR THE LOVE OF MUSIC, FIRST, LAST AND ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!